I've been trying to work out how to explain my absence from blogging these past 2 weeks, I've thought about ignoring it, jumping back in and pretending I've never been away. Maybe using the CFS\ as an excuse, I haven't been blogging as I've been too exhausted, a half truth. I've thought about tackling it with humour, asking if anyone missed me and glossing over the reasons.
None of these options have felt right, and the more that I didn't know how to explain my absence the longer I've stayed away. So I've decided to go with the truth.
I've known for a while now that I was pregnant and after having 5 miscarriages early pregnancy is a difficult time for me. I pulled away from the blog as the pregnancy progressed because I was scared, nervous, worried and not in a great head space.
Unfortunately this doesn't have a happy ending, last week I had miscarriage number 6. As much as I want to come on here and pretend every thing is fine, its not. I don't even know how to begin to describe how I'm feeling and if I'm honest, I'm not really sure I know how I feel.